Understanding Some Of The Struggles of Dissociative Identity Disorder

Living with Dissociative Identity disorder (DID) can be extremely exhausting, while it is a gift from God,  it is also difficult to detect because the survivors learned techniques to help cope from  repeated trauma, due to  the hidden nature of the dissociative symptoms, the coexistence of depression, anxiety, or substance abuse which may mask the dissociation symptoms, and the feelings of disconnection

that are often difficult to verbalize and because it is hard to detect,  the people in their life do not understand why they behave the way they do,  to have the negative judgment from people,the so called friends who tell them  to just get over it or the church that ignores it. Life can be hard with just having the PTSD and Depression but add in DID there's a lot more struggles to overcome.

 

Relationships: Maintaining healthy relationships is hard. Having disconnections to people,or not even knowing who the close family members are, people believe that there lying,have trust issues in others, and the fear of getting close because they do not want to get hurt. Also some DID Survivors often find themselves in domestic violence relationships and do not even recognize when they are in unhealthy relationships. They also push the people away that are healthy.

Career: Although many can keep jobs and get an education but because of struggles with memory loss, anxiety they worry people will find out and be judged for the disorder ,hoping that no one sees through the  struggles of what task are done, what still needs to be done and hoping that parts of self are doing the job right when dissociating from the stress of the day.  

Showing Emotions: DID survivors have been taught to not feel, told not to be angry, cry or show any signs of sadness, because of this they may come off as if they do not care,  have no empathy for others. or  being told they have an attitude. Many DID survivors do feel and  do have empathy they just have a hard time showing it.

Time: Many can be confused by time, dates, how long time past and even scheduling. Friends, co-workers or appointments  are made to be forgotten or not on time for which results in annoyance, anger and even late fees at a missed appointment.

Side Effects: Having DID there is always side effects like Depression, Bipolar or even PTSD while these can be treated with medication  it does not  alleviate the symptoms of DID.

Touch:  Many do not like to be touched or some do and others don't, which can be a struggle when in a relationship, struggling with intimacy with their partner or even with hugging a friend.

Eating disorder: When parts of self eat too much or do not eat at all this can cause lots of weight issues and unhealthy habits that each individual take on.

Detached from body: Feeling like they're not in there body, living outside of it or above themselves, or  not seeing themselves in the mirror.

Decisions: DID survivors may make impulsive decisions, or having a hard time making a decision can cause tasks not to be done, missed opportunities, or even confusion.

Phobias: Having fears or anxiety  over  particular things with no understanding of why, such as closet doors being open, bathroom shower curtains, or maybe certain smells.

Confused identity: DID survivors tend to be confused about who they are, what their sexual preference are or may struggle with likes and dislikes.